The sticks felt thick in my hands. I pushed my foot forward on the pedal and almost jumped at the sound of the bass drum. Every inch of my torso felt tight and jumpy. Maybe this was a mistake. How would I ever learn to play the symbols without cringing? I could not believe that my arms would be able to coordinate the movements required to play the different parts at the same time. He said I just needed to practice, keep at it, build muscle memory. You can do it he said. And I believed him.